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First i'd like to brag about my new shoes.. Haha.. they're from sleeze, and i tnk they look great!haha.. You see teh brown lace in front, that was the original lace, but i had a stronger foresight, and changed it to orange, AND it looks soooooooo funky now.. And wende helped me do an even funkier style of lacing the shoes!look at the lace careeeeeeeeefully! ahhah.. ok maybe you have better shoes, but now i dun care.. cos guess wad, these great shoes only cost me SGD$45! with laces! great for my new year! haha.. hope my toe can take it by new year..

ok.. so i wanna say a few things, if you know me well enough, and seen me at prom, you'd know i got my whole trenchcoat and shirt and tie and pants all from uncle roy who did everything for me. UNcle roy's a great designer, but well, he has his eccentricities too, well i guess artiss are like that.. anyways, for ths new year, he's making me a casual blazer.. its a bit ex though $120, but i guess for a blazer my size.. hmmz.. so yeah! haha i'm going to get it tml! so i hope it looks good, new brown blazer, my new purple shirts and a green one too, and jeans and those shoes! ahhahahahhaha.. hope i look good! haha..

ok.. so no surprise.. how in heavens,(haha cnt use vulgarity in new year)do i do my new year visiting with a broken family like mine!? ahha.. i honestly dunno.. but anyways, for tml thats the eve, its ratehr busy, its dance at 9, den until elevnish i think, and den go meet pearlyn and go see uncle roy for teh blazer, den after that go aunt's place den go my grandma's place.. haha.. busy at he eve already! haha.. and my dad? well, HE SAYS that he's outta town, well thats what hppn last year too, so yeah.. i think he running away from new years.. hahah..

NOW! happy things, i wanna go out with you! i dun care who you are! call me, we go pai nian! before i go in army on tuesday evenng! ok!? everybody call me.. and..

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!!

posted by Apple Bapok

you know why i'm not in camp

i have an ingrown
yes freaking ouch
i cut my nail regularly
but lately, i've not cut it properly
so i sorta left a little thorn
then it grew in to the meat
then i tolerated it for a week in camp
army camp
running jumping marching swimming and everything
ouch
sunday morning woke up with too much pain
so i went to see a doctor
standard procedure
he gives me a nice anaesthetic injection
in to my big toe which hurt enough for me to wince in pain
it really hurt
considering wad i could tolerate in one week
so went into the operationg table
he cut open the problem meat
den he did a nice cut and pulled out the problem nail
then he was showing it to me
den wad happened was
as he was showing me where it was pierced and all
i saw a really long thorn
like half the length of your fingernail
den after that he looked back
and my toe had excessive bleeding
even with a knot tied to stop the bleeding
he tells me he wants to use he machine
he pulls out a long tube
den i thought it was to suck the blood
but no
it was like a little tazer
that was used to zap my capillaries
so that it can seal up my wound
you know when he zapped my capillaries i still felt it
i still felt it hurt
it hurt so much i had to open my mouth to scream
but it was so pain pain until i opened my mouth with no voice to shout
and that was still with the anaesthetic
so i had a crater beside my toe
den he bandaged
anyways
i just took out the bandage and it seems like a wrong move
cos its bleeding AND pusing now
and i constantly feel it throb

haiz

ouch

posted by Apple Bapok

what do i know about putting feelings into words?
what assurance do i have that you are reading this?
what do i know about dictating emotions into words?

i do not know.

i know i've lost contact with alot of people
i know i've not talked to or msged for so long
so long
too long

do they still remember me?
do they think about me before they sleep?
do they find themselves at a loss for words when asked about friends?
do they remb that i remb them..
do they cry themselves to sleep sometimes?
do they sigh when they thin abt friends?
i do..

i miss everybody.. but it feels like i just disapeared into thin air..
it feels like that doesnt it

so if i disappeared.. then will anyone fly by this blog again?
i dunno..

i miss everybody

i miss you all!!!!!!!!!!!!

I MISS YOU ALLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how do i describe the emptiness of a void
how do i describe the feelings of carrying a tornado's eye?
how do i..
how do i..

or does emptiness have feelings?
is void alive?

are they allowed to?

i dunno.... haha.. i try to laugh..

I miss you all..

PS: i haven forgotten you guys.. happy birthday! jere! idza!

and most of all..
happy birthday swee..

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