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Hahahahahhahaha.. i cnt stop laughing with these few vids. imust share.. hahahhaha lol

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i lately discovered a site called you tube.. its good.. and check this out..

i find it very relevant to me.. hahaha.. pls be patient and watch it to the end very funny.. ^^

posted by Apple Bapok

The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, cause baby
(We belong together)

When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together

Who else am I goin' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together

This song is song is stuck in my head again.. but because this time i have more parties whom i'm missing so much and now with so much more depth in meaning, i really really like it now.. loopin it over and over again.. it has many many meanings, just like a palmspest. it has a slow and good beat, and trust me, the beat is somehow smoother and slicker than fort minor.. so yeah, its a freaking good song! go get it..

Maria Carey - We Belong Together

(click on the pics for bigger version)

Thank you Maria for singing such a wonderful song!

First up, i'd like to really thank Idiosyncrasy, esp steffi and shaiful, for making the dance session just now so enjoyable.. and thank you for teaching me the wonderful of that songs, that is so freaking cool! haha i tell you.. its feaking smooth and slick..

Dear Shai and Steffi thank you for making just now so natural and fun.

this dance session meant alot to me.. it meant alot for me that you all still accepted me and were so positive abt my extreme size.. lol.. and of course, now you got me really excited over Funkamania.. i will put my best over.. and i really feel like we belong together.. haha cheezy but it feels so right dancing with you all. and so if you're from Idiosyncrasy and reading this, join me, and click our pic, and join me in my recollection and expectations of the many wonderful moves, and grooves we used to and will soon have.. =)

Idiosyncrasy rocks!

Then i wanna say to my baby, i miss you.. i miss you like crazy.. and when i'm in this quiet study room, with the song playing from the laptop, and i'm all alone, well dear, i feel alone.. i love you.. there's not more i need to say..

I only think of you on two occasions,
Day,
and Night.

baby. i miss u.

Here, i'd like to say a big THANK YOU to my darling talented class, 04A3.. thank you all for that wonderful outing.. man i really miss you all already! haiz.. i really regret not spending more time with you guys, i really feel bad for being so busy.. now, with more time, i'm really glad i spent the time with you all.thank you for welcoming me back..

thank you to ppl like swee, char t, mich w, mich teh, jeremy, char q, denise, faye, grace, andrea, timothy and clem and of course everyone else too!

that day on the beach was fun, fun i never felt for so long.. i really hope that we will forever stay in contact.. sorry i dun have the pics from the outing.. so i'm using this "unreleased" pic.. lol.. now.. seriously.. thank you to ppl like mich w who's willing to go out with me, to char t and swee for shopping with me and alot alot more, hanging with you guys made me lose tt cold, old and helpless dark feeling of a sad and desponding void within me.. thank you.. i love you guys. thank you for assimilating me so fast.. thank you.. haha.. i really love you guys.. there are so many ppl i need to thank and i know that these meagre and measly words cannot do trick so allow me to try to do that here.. thank you..

My class is compressed with talent. don't mess with us.

Next i really need to say to the councillors.. wow.. we've really grown and matured in our relationships.. now sending dawn and tk home has a special feeling and depth.. haveing a heart to heart talk with wei jie has an although stranger but more significant and important impact.. going for all these outings is so important to me esp since i'm going army le.. i really love the way that we've grown closer and still keep in contact, albeit the fact that we've stepped down and school has even ended.. i really really really think that our relationships are going to last.. and thank you for all the hassle of planning that farewell for me.. i'm very touched.. seriously.. i hope we will always stay in contact..

24th Students' Council. i love you.

if you don have this song i hope you get to hear it.. cos seriously..i think it applies.. it strums that special chord somewhere in my heart.. it really applies to us.. to us all..

I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Saying to me
"If you think you're lonely now"
Wait a minute
This is too deep (too deep)
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
"I only think of you"
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart

I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things, crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
It ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life, baby

When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together

Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together, baby

posted by Apple Bapok

These are the following things in my head:

Fun
"oh shit i haven studied! and its 7 hours to the paper!"
Pearlyn
laughing
playing dota
"should i read my lit books?"
sex
sex
sex
"i'm bored"
"i dun wanna study.."
"i wanna sleep"
"should i wake up at 3 and study or study then sleep?"
"nah study then sleep"
"OH FUCK i wched 4 hours of tv just now.."
DOTA
Pearlyn
A3 outin at the beach..
"will the black shirt dry in time for tml?"
"should i wear the black shirt."
"hmmz.. wads pearlyn eatin now?"
"she met the si zhong kids yet?"
soma
bliss pluss pill
"WTF am i doing online.."
"hmmz.. yvonne SPENT 2K on her dad's phone.."
"omg"
"wish i had 2k"
"why are you reading this.."
"i hope you like this.."
"excorcism with mich or zoo with og4"
"hmmz.. dunno.."
"i only have $100 left OH F_ING NO!"
"sorry if i'm confusing you.."
sex
sleep
"i should be studying now.."
"arrgh!"
"cliffnotes or sparknotes"
"fuck!"
haiz
"i'm so fat fo idio.."
"arrgh! study!"
"arrgh"
sex
sex
"oh no wad will you think?"
"i dun care"
"study!"
"thanks for the catharsis"

bye

posted by Apple Bapok

Shirley says:

"aiyoh... because i know how you treat your gf what... she's more important than anything. i observed that okay. honestly ..., i know that you find something in her that u can love. and about knowing, i just know ya? ;) i think there's no point talking about the problem if it's already happened. just let it rest for a while and the solution will come to you."

Thank You jeremy.. it is something that i hold on to.. friends like you who just know if i'm screwed thank you i love you..

haha and for those of you who wanna know wads happening to this guy who tags every ice age.. here's a few updates
1. i'm gonna tag more often
2. i sorta added a link area below (FINALLLY!)
3. i just finished my 2nd last paper and am left with ONE LAST ONE
4. MISS MY DANCE GROUP IDIOSYNCRASY SO MUCH
5. Freakn lookin forward to A3's outing on the 24th.. (pls everyone go.. pls..)
6. in retrospect still sorta affected by my personal life and the paper just now
7. impressed by the nameless character (i will explain later)
8. im going to serve the nation on the 3rd of dec
9. gonna wanna meet up everyone

10. don't want you to think that i will be fine on my own.. call me out.. pls..

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OK.. i am thoroughly impresed by my determination to write a tag worthy of an obiously long winded individual i am..

okok now here i go.. ermz.. i just finished my paper 8 its one of my two most feared paper.. so yeah.. super glad its over.. me swee and char went out after that.. tried to watch movie.. and after finally deciding to go we discovered that it was outta seats..!!.. we rushed to the next place, suntec city, den discovered the timing sux.. we den went in to the wonderful restaurant sizzler.. i tried gettin an orange snow cap.. but then cldnt find a nice one.. den contemplated with buying a new sweater.. but my thin wallet turned me down.. so after that i walked past this choc shop and stopped to think. i dunno should i get her royce.. but then didnt get the chance to go back.. so ultimately decided to go with a safe option.. Den.. i went to get TWO oreo cheesecake for my dear.. den reached there, she's aslp so i pass it to her sister.. hope she doesnt eat it, and walk home on foot.. den i reached home, i talked on the phone and online.. and now. haha. i'm taggin.. again..

feel alive. invigorated. and rediscovered my passion to write and the wonderful cathartic effects..

OK.. yes.. i wanna tag more often.. i wnna tag more often i'll be in camp and losing touch with my frens.. SO FOR ALL MY FRENS PLEASE STILL CALL ME OUT.. and look out and keep in touch through here yeah.. i love you all.. and i will always remb everyone on my JC journey..

Today's paper was wierd.
onlyone way to describe it.. the paper was wierd.. the easiest question was prose.. and it was a bit too easy.. hmmz.. so i sorta overspent some time on it.. den wad happened was.. haha.. well i left with 1 hour to do the next qn drama.. drama was hard.. i was in depth and i finally got it..

it was the criticism of the futile imitations of the Indian society.
Due to the fact that it stemmed from unfair expectations form the English society.

it wasnt easy for me to come up with this in the normal 15 mins.. i really screwed.. and so it took me a total of 35 mins to nail all the things the playwright did to show this.. the play of time,set, etc.. den i looked at my watch and i scream in my head WTF!? i have only 25 mins to write this essay!? i have 6 page worth of material on my plan.. so i chionged the impt parts required from the question.. wow that sucked.. still didnt think that i cld finish at least 4 page in time.. i wrote one page, half the next page, and when describing the set, i drew.

yes i drew.
i drew for my fucking lit A level essay unseen paper question on drama! ... i must have been outta my mind nowi think about it.. ha ha.. i pray for a miracle that occured during the harvard equivalent of "Courage" to happen, and pray thet the examiners see it as a creative fibre..

and den i was so impressed by the nameless character in the prose he has no name.. he is just "I" omg.. so conformed, so assimilated and lost in identity and zero assertion of individuality.. wow.. Orwellian citizen ahhaha.. but hey.. he siad these few quotes i loved..

"My loins burn for a woman, even Shirley"
"I love Weixian"
"I seek his approval more.."
"As though after all this years she still trys to make sure i have food to eat.."

and my fav

"Everytime she's ill, I ache inside at my powerlessness"

Wow.. this i believe was a Singaporean writer so yeah.. anyways.. wow.. and so yeah.. i love this character.. and his wife is shirley and his daughter weixian.. and jeremy has now the pseudoname of Shirley.. and she aims to be the correct one.. but andyways.. i still wanna take some part of the blog to thank Phillip Jeyaretnam for his good work, and Jeremy for consoling me.. thank you for just knowing.. like the voice did when i read the paper.. even if i never once told you anything.. thank you..

3RD DEC i am going for my NS.. i'm going so early cos i have to do extra BMT (basic military training) and so as i was scheduled a date thats before my birthday.. since i'm going in before my birhday, i am, in the eyes of the law, a VOLUNTEER till my birthday.. yes.. its wierd they gave me the time and call me a volunteer.. i know it sounds dumb being volunteer for only days too.. but consider ppl who are serious abt a career in the army or saggitaurians who came late december.. haha.. so yeah.. at first i thought i was going alone.. and seriously feared not going with friends like jason but still i got it in and i should still be in the same company with my bigger friends. and yes.. Vicknesh is going in the same time as me.. ok i dun wanna admit it but form this nanosecond onwards i'm gonna acknowledge it.. i want to be in the same platoon with vicknesh.. adds a nice twist and flavour to our friendship.. haha imagine...

Officer: " Everybody PUMPING! DOWN!"
(motion)
Officer: (slaps forehead in shock at stupidity) "PRIVATE NG! GET OFF PRIVATE MANOSELVAM NOW! AND PRIVATE MANOSELVAM HOW DARE YOU ENJOY THAT!? WHO TOLD YOU TO SMILE!? KNOCK IT DOWN!"
(motion)
Officer: "PRIVATE MANOSELVAM WHY YOU UNZIPPING YOUR PANTS AND HITTING IT!? NOT KNOCK IT DOWN! KNOCK IT DOWN! PUSH UPS DEY!"
...

just imagine.. the anarchy at Tekong.. omfg.. gonna be freaking fun.. Muahahahahhahaha..

there's just this prob though a few days ago, mr Tan told me that i should go for an internship.. normally only hwa cHong JC can go.. but well this year its us.. so yeah.. hmmz.. he suggested i differ.. i dunno.. mr kok said no.. i dunno..

OK NOW LISTEN UP! IF YOU ARE A MEMBER OF MY CLASS A3, READ THIS:

COME FOR THE OUTING TO THE BEACH
AFTER LIT PAPER 4!

ok.. thank you.. cos we're having a little outing i have some plans.. picture this for me will you, us in a semi curcle beside a warm fire, (hopefully i figure out to do it if not screw the fire, i have back up plans) singing and having a thanking session.. yes please lets just go out.. our class camne togetehr and cbecame united at a time of strong adversity.. our year one was not that great.. but in times when other classes subdived and split, we were closer stronger.. so lets go already!okok? pls..
PS: those with guitar pls bring..

AND I FREAKING MISS MY DANCE GROUP IDIOSNCRASY!!!

i belong to a dance group called idiosyncrasy.. we look hot and good. this pic alone got us the 77th street funkiestgroup photo award.. ^^ we dance really freaking good.. i feel bad, cos i had to go study while they went to get good gigs haiz.. and i grew fat.. so unfair to them.. so i'm gonna go army and really sweat it out.. i really hope you guys remb cos i got you guys the contact you remb? or do you know? but it doesnt matter i just wanna dance side by side again, with the best dancers i ever danced.. you know wad makes us special? we dare to look at ourselves and say we suck and at the same time still expect alot.. thats why we look good.. i miss you all and hope i get to rejoin.. and if i do,
Watch out!FUNKAMANIA we're gonna funk you..

OK.. so that ends my thoughts for now.. gonna refine the links area.. and yes.. i wanna tel you
dun always think i'm ok and i'm happning and busy. i'm not.. so please call me out yeah.. ^^

love peace and everything nice..

posted by Apple Bapok

Today I begin to understand what love must be, if it exists. . . .
When we are parted, we each feel the lack of the other half of ourselves.
We are incomplete like a book in two volumes of which the first has been lost.
That is what I imagine love to be: incompleteness in absence.

~ Edmond de Goncourt (1822-96) and Jules de Goncourt (1830-70), French writers.

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