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I have been doing my best to run away from this blog.
it hides the darkest and most emotional parts of my thoughts and feelings.

but this time, an event has impacted me enough to begin writing again.
Our Legendary Minister Mentor and first Prime Minister of Singapore, Mr Lee Kuan Yew,
recently suffered the loss of his wife from over half a century of marriage.

it has moved me enough to brush the cobwebs in my heart.

Lately there are alot of people who have been asking me what i think about Mdm Kwa's death
what it means to me is surprisingly of a tender topic.

I have, for the longest time been running away from love and the tender parts of my painful history.

first of all it means to me,
it means the mother of Singapore has left

consider the twin chinese krilin of singapore
and one has stood up and flew to paradise to rest
and her partner sits at the door of Singapore looking at her

it worries me that maybe LKY's turn is coming too?

and the mortality of the Lee dynasty though always present has been conveniently ignored and sidelined

and these are things that remind us to be thankful
thankful for prospperity peace and progress

we are lazy asian faustian subjects
that have grown fat, complaining and conceited.
we take our leadership for granted.

From a social point of view,
maybe the cure is a good dose of bad leadership

On the other hand
Mdm Kwa's death engages the softest parts in my heart.

their love story lead me to want a love story like theirs

i want a partner to match my fieryness
match my ambition
and support my dreams, my fears, my anxiety, and give me a family

i want a partner i can bring to social events and rest well knowing that she would be impressive

i want a wife like Mdm Kwa

i want a love storyof passion, intellect, capability and most inportantly, fierce and silent intimacy

we are not defined by an act
but by the people we choose to surround ourselves with

i think sometimes ppl are like that

and your partner you CHOOSE tells everyone and yourself who you are
and what you want in life

and i wonder if Sinagpore has other Mdm Kwas cos i want one like that too

i want a wife who will in the middle of my ambition, glory and troubles,
stand in the crowded stands and make them all go into slow motion

because i will only see her and feel at peace

i dont know if i can fall in love like that
maybe i did. or thought i did.

so personally these two things

mortality of Lee dyanasty that leads to appreciativeness

and envy and poignant hope when standing in awe of their love story

RIP Mrs Lee.

Thank you for inspiring me.

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