I didnt think i would feel like this again. like a deep knot inside me...
today my brother told me my dad finally filed for a divorce with my mum. and he apparently desires assets hat belongs to my mum how that even works i don't know.. and even if my mum gets the house, things are not the same..
its not so much a problem solution thing for me. for i always thought i was cured from my family problem when i was J1, its not true, i was better with pearlyn.
and today when the news hit me i kept thinking of pearlyn. how i used to throw anger at my mum on her.. and how i really realy did not treasure her.
and i let her go.
and when the news came today my first instinct was to look for her. and i look at that picture i never took down, i know. i know.
and just when i thought my life went back to the trivialities of studies and work, it turns out my life is still a mess... a big fucking mess.. and my only buoy, my only lighthouse, i let her go.
i didnt think i would feel like this again, like a deep knot inside me.
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