trust me, if you do know this song, you'd think i'm in some really pre-retro mood. i mean pre-retro as in older than retro rock you know. this is classical music man. old old old ballad. so yeah. someting struck me about this song's melody and lyrics. well, i was a young sec 2 boy with fat tummy and still small in thinking i guess. suddenly now i feel the writer is a genious. i mean it. the melody, the lyrics, it summarizes it all. no i'm not troubled abt my love life(not much) i'm just amazed by how apt the question is. WHERE DO I BEGIN? and WHERE DO I START? trust me. my life's currently filled with tings i wanna do. seriously, i'm taking things abit slowly i guess compared to my friends who are i guess sleeping right now and dreaming abt mugging foteh prelims. dont get me wrong, i'm mugging too, just these days, it seems harder. and there's the trillion things i discover i want to do. of course i can dont. i can not care abt organising notes and stuff, but well i still do it. you know cos its like i need that to headstart my mugging. then i mugg and then i have schedules. but still i feel lost like some how, i dun feel my momentum of the run. you know. like when you're in a game(any game, chess, badminton, basketball, squash, cometition or even organising camps). i dun feel my momentum. is it cos i'm not pacing? well, 'm just complaining really. hahha.. seriously.i guess i find it hard cos my breaks feel good and my mugging eel good. and i guess its too perfect for me? cos its like the 2 hours muygging was great and i learnt something, and suddenly the 5 mins break feel great. and i do it again. and again.
and again.
and again. again.

get it? there's something missing. i think i really miss being busy and tired and worked my shit out. shot i'm workaholic(but i still complain when it gets too much!) the best times, and the faest i could study was when i was juggling between resting, going out, eating, chatting, homework, exams, council projects, friends etc. now its a bit too little on my wagon to pull. GF, FRIENDS(who are also mugging fyi) and MUGGING DUTIES. is there something wrong with me? i'm whining about having little work? well i cannot deny i'm enjoying the slower pace. but when i see how the juniors are enjoying i just wish the exams away and wanna just go back to my year 1 year. it was freaking good, i mean freaking freaking good fun. i guesits fulfillment. i'm some kinda stubborn idiotic pig i guess. i'd refuse to move until there's like a mountai of work on my wagon and i shove and pull like hell, and everytime i just make it and every wonders at how i do it all. and its times likethese i feel fulfilled. i'd look fulfillment in the eyes, and feel good. haha some might call this lucky encounters with procrastination. and you know wad. i think i am too..,. haha... i just wanna get my momentum.. not the micro kinda momentum of inishing a set of notes in 1 hour. i mean momentum in like flying through the topis and in subjects so i can fly to even more bonus things like essay plan etc.. hahaha.. lazy pig i am.. so maybe i call it a problem.. guess. i'm jut bitching about myself being too slow.. but welll, even though i fell i'm studying more, ut well i guess its an internal thing now. i know i can go like 3 millions time faster than i can now. esp from my past experiences. damn.

i wanna get the mementum again.

the momentum of the run.

again.



Where do i begin? Where do i start?