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Five Colours in her hair

"du du du du du TU!".. thats how this song starts.. Its omg time.. i feel really bad.. really bad.. My life's in a mess.. FIRSTLY, i Keep waking up late! i dunno whats gotten over me.. is it my reliance on cabs or wad? i discovered i have tendencies to stay up late.. i dunno! i dunno! SECONDLY, my life's in a mess those who know my family probs will understand! arz... how can hatred have emotions and greed and selfishness attached.. i hate hatred! THIRDLY, my work is super F**ked up.. i have yunnan video which i haven start.. i owe gab something.. i think i need to sit down with simon ask what he want for video and songs and cheers.. SCDC needs to perfect dance.. we haven set up deco.. we haven plan ogl camp.. i have idiosyncrasies dance pract fro grad night.. soon i will need to perform grad night.. i need to have house meeting! arrz! shit.. FOURTHLY, my social life sucks! it really sucks.. i keep worrying for naz.. i keep trying to link to gab.. i keep banking on swee and khair.. is this the way? i haven thanked them, shown appreciation or doen anything for them! Christmas is coming lehs! i keep promising swee to study but i cnt even take a lunchwith her! haiz.. and i need to go for yannick's chalet1 i wanna go.. i promised too! but now with my workload,. its not wise, not wise at all! MANY MANY people have good hopes of me.. my mum wants me to send her off on the 16th(thats chalet day[i want to send her off..]), simon obviously trusts us alot.. wende seems just waiting for my go to start deco.. i think mr ho is still waiting to see me study..

"Welcome To My Life"

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like

To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

THIS, is exactly how i feel! sianz.. the only time i feel free, is when i'm dancing to five colours.. with people like ade, naz, andre, wende and dawn.. i love scdc! they really bring me somewhere inside..feels like back to O2 all dancing, and dancing, and dancing.. but now got deco.. i really wanna do this well! haiz..

here, i really need to thank two people.. Kin Chong.. really thnx.. seriously... everytime i play FT with you is when i feel stressed and fucked up.. you go count how many times that is.. thnx for being there..

Swee.. if i could thank you, i would, these pathetic bunch of words dun do u justice at all.. maybe you're right, maybe i'm just pms-ing.. maybe... but it feels freaking bad.. and you've always been there.. and on top of that you've always shown me direction to walk..

at this moment i can only thank the both of you and play "welcome to my life".. haiz..

i miss khair.. and i dunno what i'm typing anymore.. in any case..

WELCOME TO MY LIFE..

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Hi, welcome to my blog, a place i don't visit often, but i know is there. a place i wish i had more time for. and everytime i come, i leave big parts of myself here. so if you want to know more about me, you've come to the right place.. cheers ^-^

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To get first class honours in LIT.

spend time with my mummy.

Fall in love.

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